For the past few days now I've been critically looking at my work and performance a little more than usual. I guess it's because of the looming April 4th deadline to submit for the program review. I know I have what it takes and am actually confident that I will pass through. But, I guess the reason I'm so hesitant is because I see this "review" as a moment to state I am good enough, that I understand the fundamentals and am on my way to advancement. But the truth is I am extremely aware of how much I need to learn. My work is acceptable but not at a standard where I can say a YES, I feel confident in using this in a creative way. I feel right now I'm getting really good at technical but really struggling with translating that knowledge creatively. Yesterday, I saw a guy's artwork, more specifically his figure drawings from Art Center that I know I can do given some time. So, what's the rush? I have people telling me, "Diana, you should submit this semester!" or questioning, "Diana, why aren't you submitting, you're good enough!" And it just occurred to me that I never want to be just good enough. I never want to slide by with my work. That to me is the worst feeling! I want to create meaningful work with the expectation that one day that work will get me somewhere. I'm taking that idea from Malcolm Gladwell, someone who's incredibly inspirational and insightful in his lectures and stories. So what will it be?? To submit or not to submit.... that is a question only I can answer and am having a pretty hard time doing so.
Anyway, just so this post isn't all text here's a figure drawing I did about 2 weeks ago that I really loved drawing. Charcoal is definitely my most favorite medium when it comes to figure drawing, something about the smooth, gliding feeling on the paper makes me forget about my worries! (of which are in the above paragraph)
